So, I just found out my granddad has about 4 days to live. It's not unexpected, he's 92 and has been in a bad way for a couple of years (impressively, he's survived 13 heart attacks, pretty much every organ failing and 3 strokes in that time, and until recently was at least modestly functional). I'm getting the train up to visit to say goodbyes and things tomorrow, which I'm sure will be horrible. But this is the first death I will have experienced (at least since I was old enough to really process these things), and I can't help but feel nothing. And I know this isn't necessarily uncommon, but I can't sort of force myself to cry or feel really sad about it, which is making me feel like a terrible person, cos we were quite close, and I sort of feel the weight of the situation, but its like I can't seem to process it.
Like, any advice and stuff? Not that advice is really a thing for this kind of thing, I have no idea. Just felt the need to vent a bit.