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and why don't you have any friends to hang out with on a Saturday night?
but did it in another thread and now I'm really embarrassed so I'm going to get off dis now.
I'm going to have a beer now, I'll drink one for you too!
Got an offer to go watch some fireworks in a village. I don't like fireworks (or villages) and it's pissing it down outside, so I'm feeling pretty happy with my decision right now. If anything, I'm too *snug* and comfortable.
What a cunt.
I do, but town will be rammed cos of the rugby earlier, so I'm giving it a miss and staying in out the rain.
only got out of bed for two wees & the pizza delivery man since 4pm yesterday.
bored isn't the top of my list anyway. sweating, coughing up glue, hallucinating and drifting in and out of consciousness keep yr mind off boredom.
think i'm over the hump now, my back is ACHING though.
was only saying the other week that i haven't been ill for a couple of years, twice since then. hubris, bamnan.
It's bound to bite me on the arse soon!
can't even really be arsed to go and buy more beer coz it's raining out
is it too early to go to bed at 9pm?
don't have many friends anymore cause my friendship group(s) dissolved and people grew up and moved away and i'm too busy/ill/anxious to bother making new friends.
one of best friends expected me to cover the fact that he was pursuing/leading someone else on (who was a friend of mine) despite the fact that i was friends with his partner at the time, without even addressing the situation. i'd leave having had a drink with him and he'd have invited the other person and it would be awkward cause like it was obvious that this friend of mine was really into him and then i'd have to either answer a text from his gf or actually see her on my way home, she'd then ask where he was (because she thought he was with me) and i'd just have to say 'i dunno' or 'he's met up with some other friends, i've had to go'. i'd seen him do the same thing to two other people i knew prior (friends of my other best friend) in a similar way (after breakups with that same gf) and, them being good friends with my other bestie, had somewhat been involved with the fallout of that after he'd come clean/tell them he still loved his ex and get back together with her instead. it was just so awkward and i didn't know what to do anymore or what i was even doing so i just stopped actively involving him in my life and i dunno if he got the message that i didn't approve of having to voluntarily sort shit out i didn't even want to be involved with, also i was at a point in my life when i realised that friendships don't just work one way and was sick of putting up with a variety of shit from others.
a lot of people fell out with me around the time i started seeing my boyfriend because they were angry that i wasn't talking about him, and saying i'd went 'behind their back' by ending up in a relationship that they knew little about, and then they were even more angry when months passed and i hadn't arranged for them to meet him (funny to think about now cause i've been going out with him for a few years and known him longer). these are people that i had supported for years through shit yet never myself opened up to because they had never given me the opportunity to talk about myself. a few of my male friends stopped bothering me when they found out i was in a serious relationship. some even threatened to break it up or attack him which was so fucking weird and why were these people my friends in the first place????
also there was overlap with my friends and people in active friendships with two people who had both assaulted me (separately) and that made me feel really weird, almost as if they were approving of their shitty attitudes to others and it was just horrible and toxic and not something i wanted to have to deal with and go through with anymore.
you deserve so much better than that sort of shit (which you must know but still) xxoxoxox
Gosh it sounds like you have/had some really neurotic and perhaps even nasty friends! Definitely sounds pretty one way there, you're right though as you get older it's just not worth investing time into friendships that aren't mutually beneficial. My one proper friend is super sound and I feel quite lucky to have one friend who is just never ever melodramatic or high maintenance with me, a calming influence really.
Thanks for taking the time to post something honest and interesting!
but most of them live in different cities. and i have no money to go out with my friends who actually live near me. i used to have more friends but i've become pretty boring and can't really be bothered. it's weird how people just stop being friends.
By the internet is not real life I've learnt that a few times!
Isn't it great though when you have that rare sort of friend where there's no pressure and you can pick up where you left off even after years, there's something really beautiful about that.
Sometimes I think of all the friends and best friends and the like that have blessed my life and passed through or I have ruined or drifted away from and just get a weird buzz thinking about how amazing it is to be a human being and how proud I am to e part of other peoples narratives, even the fact I'm talking to you is amazing!
Give us a P
Give us a B
Give us a H
constantly paranoid that i'm not making enough effort to see friends and they will subsequently forget who i even am, and the ones that i do see regularly i constantly suspect find me really annoying or boring.
if it matters at all you're one of the coolest people imo
because most of my friends are far away and have moved into the settled down phase of life while I am a perpetual teenager, rarely contact them as never want to be an obligation so am always the contactee, kinda regret settling into that dynamic now as it means I don't have any control over my social life. did actually go out tonight so may not be eligible for this thread.
I am about
That's an early time to be up on a Sunday, what gives?