Mine was really busy!
Had a row with my mum.
Still dont know why I feel ill all the time. Bloodtests inconclusive. Again.
Actually, ended well as I spoke to ne of my dogs and he said I was a rwally great person.
Treat yourself to something fun tonight
Had a charity coffee morning and raffle in work. Stuffed myself with cake and won a bottle of wine.
went running in the morning, then work, then someone at work rung me up and told me they hate immigrants and that i should go back to turkey (fun!), then italian lesson, now eating chocolate and skyping and doing nothing much (should probably be learning italian vocab)
why was your monday so busy?
Will be a way busy week....might get to work for half seven tomorrow hmmmmmm...
Oh but on the plus side 9 weeks without smoking now :)
Running is great!
What is it?
idk confirm plz
aren't they venomous or something?
makes the most strangest sound aswell.
*punches the air, pulls shirt over face*
I seriously considered suicide twice today, which is once more than my daily average so that sucks too...fantasising about getting hit by a lorry mmmm.
How are you holding up though? You seem to have a real warmth of spirit as a person on here at least...take care of yourself x
Can't have my hardman persona challenged *now*, not now there's an election coming
But yeah, I'm ok. It's hard. I'm getting on with things. I need to get off the Internet and start writing soon.
I won't tell you to stop considering suicide. Actually, I'll tell you to give those thoughts life - write about them in a private diary. Elaborate upon them until it's no longer you considering suicide - until it's a complex fiction, a third party in the tango between Death and Bamnan. You might find artistic inspiration.
I can't confront it that directly yet sadly, just trying to keep it simple.
2 jobs and had 6-7 enquiring whether Im still available. Its only been about a week since Ive been applying. AAAAlso my uncle whos pretty great has said I can stay there rent free until whenever as hes always at his girlfriends. After having a crisis over the weekend its turning out "ok" (cue death of all family members and loss of limbs in freak boating accident)
Twiddling my thumbs before I start work. Promised myself to be more productive tomorrow. Seem to have a frozen shoulder thing going on too (just a symptom description, don't know what it actually is)
Plus points: fixed the toilet seat
and i still do a bit. but at least i've got my CV up to date. tomorrow i'll start on cover letters for a couple of jobs I have seen.
just had a lovely conversation with the person who is my most likely housemate going forward. he's got a cat. i'm pretty fucking pleased about that
my new school has a cat that wanders into the computer lab
He's asked me about Christmas leave (which hopefully means I have a job until then) and didn't ask the other long term temp. And I'm being sent to do some training, which the other guy isn't. God knows why. I'm not completely useless at my job, but I make tonnes of silly mistakes and 2 months in I'm still asking loads of questions.
I bought a pretty dress today. And an ugly skirt. I think the skirt will suit me better.
do you need a spreadsheet nerd?
I wouldn't know, I'm just a temp, sorry.
Im competent at excel at best though and made this clear. Youd be working with jordan too!
I have a lot of time to kill so thought I'd come to Ox for a day.
SAD, I'll be spending the rest of the month staring through your living room window.
really busy. only got in an hour ago or something cause i went shopping for an hour on my way home. i bought some shampoo and socks, because my work socks aren't just work socks anymore (black, because i'm a professional). i think this means i'm a grown up.
stuff should be getting really good for me soon.
go abroad tomorrow. Gonna end up in an Italian hospital aren't I?
I REALLY like watching tv programmes and seeing controversial stuff/moments I know will induce public rage and then searching on twitter for people's really judgemental reactions and being all 'oh, that's really harsh/yesssssssssss, yesssssssss judge them more, say awful things I feel I can't say'
Well, besides that it was good. Listened to lots of records and agreed to a blind date. What can go wrong?
and with mediocre job opportunities on the horizon. Just found out that my sister with 2 kids might be sectioned tomorrow. Feeling a bit down. I'm not sure how I'm going to stop drinking / rise myself for that interview in canary wharf tomorrow.
I hope there is some positive to the possibility of her being sectioned, and its not just all counter productive.
She needs help (it's depression, excessive drinking, talking about topping herself a lot and behaviour I won't mention) but I've got no confidence that the North Wales services have the ability to help her. I'm 250 miles away and can't do anything. Argh!!!
Thought it was supposed to be funnier. Was boring and awkward. Think I am developing a zahidf-esque state of mind towards one of my friends.
Was feeling better about life before Monty Python
it's much quieter and less full of douchebags than the rest of the building
my ongoing freakout over just how much work i have to fit in over the next nine weeks continues unabated though. third year aargh
But I got lots of work done and I think I've found a good new yoga course. Im teaching for most of this week and i have loads of marking to do tomorrow, which I can't face.
In fact, this week is going to be boring. I need some excitement.
It wasn't nice. Im hungry though so I might fish it out of the bin.
two recent lines from the film:
'you're gonna get in trouble and have microchips for brains!'
'have fun tonight. safe sex!'
+ bought a jacket
- dropped a steel plate on my foot