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I'm having an identity crisis
Not really sure who I am, what I want, even how I should dress. Don't even know if I like or hate my job. If I'm pushing myself into further office misery, or I'm pushing myself out of my working class beginnings. Like, who am I maaaan?
Is this is breakdown?
You're moker
It says so just below the thread title.
Someone else can answer the rest
could be the satrt of one
breakdowns are ace - you'll come out of teh other end feeling better about EVERYTHING!
have fun
also - maybe go on holiday?
might just be one of those things where you are trying to create drama
because people watch films and read books they expect drama ALL THE TIME. and when it's not there, they create it. might be that. people should stop doing that
not a thing
incorrect
is so correct
when its not there, they read the Daily Mail
BROKEN BRITAIN. YOU LIVE IN A MOVIE WHERE SHIT IS GOING DOWN ALL THE TIME.
wah?
CHECK_THIS_GUY_OUT
<3
not this
it's true. people are always looking for some reason to be under pressure or to remove themselves or make things difficult when it doesn't need to be. it's bullshit
nope
based on anecdotal evidence probably
but it seems all that goes on is people making mountains out of molehills. dunno what's wrong with everyone
are you sure
that there's just not much going on right now and your natural need for drama has led you to imagine this situation?
but if that were true
i would be right in the first place
Nah, this is a thing
We all need drama. I think cat_race is right in his observation but wrong in applying it here.
If anything it's the non drama that;'s the issue.
Just the haunting feeling of ennui in this empty modern world. Nothing to complain about, nothing to pin a purpose to. Just a floating existential sea that provides no sense of identity.
its called enuii
Oh - it's called who gives a cunt
Sorry, creaky, not aimed at you. AIMED AT THE WORLD
Is this is breakdown?
Who can say?
I guess he's better off this way.
time to go home and work down the mine with your papa and brothers
and gain some perspective
Maybe you're questioning your gender identity
I'm not that bothered about the 'who am I' thing
I think if you start getting into that it doesn't get you anywhere.
I am having the same issue with the 'what I want' and the don't even know if I like or hate my job. If I'm pushing myself into further office misery, or I'm pushing myself out of my working class beginnings'
Im also tired, very tired.
^this to the first two sentences.
And also a bit to the last para.
there's nothing wrong with being working class
it's far better than being a stupid bourgeois hipster twat
i suggest spending some time doing things you know that you like
after that maybe go shopping and get a few things that appeal to you
(also maybe read some zen books, they are very helpful)
i'm not sure there is a better of worse class is there?
seems a funny thing to belive
it's definitely a thing
that working class people are better than middle class people?
bit classist
Read some zen books but don't be a bourgeios hipster twat
Gotcha
laughsnort
the pressure to conform to an established identity
is the problem here
sure, it's healthy to establish a few principles, but in allowing oneself to be fluid, one escapes the tyranny of the label
Affluenza. It's a pain, man.
I'm planning a big new start soon, bit of a reset. Terrifying but exciting.
Interesting you mention class (and your trouble with comign to terms with middle/working)
Office work is literally the worst. Seems so cushy as youre not up at 5am working whether its windy, raining, or snowing laying slabs or whatever. Ill tell you something though, its pretty much the most soul crushing existence. Might just be where Ive worked but Ive never met anyone Ive respected in these jobs, Ive liked some, yeah, but never respected. No ones happy, and everyone despises their lot in life. Whereas at home everyone works on the roads, or cuts down trees or lays bricks. Theyre all happy, all content, and suprisingly sharper than 99% of middle class people Ive met. Even my manager who begged me to stay (BEST STATS IN THE WHOLE DEPARTMENT YEAH) said Im not really cut out for working in an office. Youre shoved into these roles as you show a tiny spark of intelligence, but because of where youre from will never rise anywhere important, and so will always inhabit the shittiest parts of the office working chain. Wank. If I have to work in an office for any length of time again, Im genuinely going to kill myself.
for about the first time ever I wholeheartedly agree with you
office work is the Great Satan of semi-affluent British society and it represents a surprisingly inefficient amassment of our collective manhours in the indentured servitude of the indefinite financial gains of the few
and I'm fucking glad I don't do it
Both offices Ive worked in have had very decent people inhabiting the management structure
but its entire purpose is seemingly to grind you into paste that does a job 'satisfactorily' and then pull you up on not achieving what you can despite the entire role creating barriers to do more. Some people thrive in this environment but for the majority its like being kicked in the balls every day just for trying to earn some money
what role is it?
Thatcher's Britain
THIS - A great post
but what can you do to escape? I think I need a purpose. A calling. Something to go THIS IS ME. Maybe I can already do this, I dunno.
I fucking hate I'm-a-victim whines, but I'm not saying I'm the victim, I'm saying I'm the cause I guess. I dunno. Do I want to be a well dressed, well earning guy, or some tracksuit wearing beer drinking working calss hero? Is there an inbetween. Argh, listen to my middle class moans.
YOU CAN'T EVEN MOAN ANYMORE
Join the Taliban
Well, it's a purpose
bin-bin-laden's talibanarmy
did you see grayson perry's programme on class tastes he did for channel 4?
it was good, i think you'd get a lot out of it re your identity crisis. its on 4od.
I did
only saw the working class one but was great.
It's a bit like that bit on Fight Club though (sorry to be all 6th form about this) where he's going on about how he looks through dinner sets to work out which one defines him best.
I was bored yesterday so went shopping. Then thought FUCKING HELL, is this it? Is this the point of working? To consume?
the middle class one has some good stuff about identity / autheticity angst
might give you a nice 'I'M NOT ALONE' feeling
i think you need to have a proper think about what things are important to you, i'm sure there is a lifestyle that suits, it's just working out what that is.
You do seem relatively angst ridden about this kind of thing (you are always banging on about it periodically), work out what you need and want and then just reposition your life to get those things.
esay!
This game is so esey!
just be less like this post and it'll be an improvement
heyo
Teach?
as much as i'd like to be all DIGNITY OF LABOUR and that
people who work pon site seem just as unhappy and free of agency as people who work in offices. working class people are just less likely to wallow in it maybe.
there's a definite endorphins thing when you finish a shift of hard physical work though, never got that with office plebbing.
Oh yeah
but its an entirely different brand of unhappy. At its bluntest, for the vast majority of office jobs theres no END to something. It just goes on forever. The satisfaction of MAKING something and that being the end of your involvement cant be underestimated. When you just deal with the same shitty queries and the same processing work every day for the rest of eternity theres nothing to base yourself around. You cant have the same mundane greyness for the rest of your life or youll end up caving in on yourself
depends what sort of 'office job' you have
If you're doing the office equivalent of a manual factory task then I can imagine that that's awful, but if you have a more creative job then its pretty fulfilling I reckon
pon de replay
can guarantee you that most people will read that as 'porn site' first time around
HO IZ MOKAR
I just don't know who I am any moboooohooohoohooohoo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=eC6ChpMjAZI#t=49s
Just drop the idea that you have a fixed identity at all
Be a rotting leaf in the breeze.
Yep, that's you Moker, a rotten leaf.
some of this seems appropriate
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Boredom (dont ignore it just because it says 'boredom' )
try meditation in a wood, just sit comfortably and try to hear as much as you can thats going on
read the tao te ching.
he who is full cannot recieve anything new
that which is empty can allow much in
allow the much to pass through if you wish, or you may chose to keep a little
Clearly you need some real world drama to distract you from your internal meanderings
Suggestions:
-Killering a man and going on the run
-Purposefully contracting a life threatening illness
-Going around making spiders bite you in the hopes of gaining superpowers
-Have sex with your mate's mum, film it, then show him the film