I was out for the evening and left a couple of browser windows open on my laptop, which was in my room, on sleep mode. It was a forum for a fetish I have (nothing extreme, relatively softcore actually). When I returned the browser window was a different size and a different tab was selected. My flatmate also seemed a little awkward but I didn't mention anything to him.
My initial reaction was to sit in a dark corner of my room for ten minutes holding my head in my hands and quietly groaning but then I thought fuck it, I'm not ashamed of having this fetish, and my flatmate probably feels more awkward about it than I do. I'm disappointed he was even looking in the first place (I've known him for years and trust him in every way). Life's too short to worry about this, right?
However last night I woke up bolt upright in a frenzied panic and couldn't get back to sleep thinking about this. Also it keeps creeping into my mind unexpectedly which results in me muttering swear words under my breath like I have tourettes or something and randomly kicking things in anger. I also have that stomach like a pit totally gutted feeling going on. It's not at all pleasant.
Please tell me your similar stories to make me feel better? Please?