......today...jeffery lewis.

i'm enjoying this.......because like hector says

''The best moments in reading are when you come across something - a thought, a feeling, a way of looking at things - which you thought special and particular to you. Now here it is, set down by someone else, a person you have never met, someone even who is long dead. And it is as if a hand has come out and taken yours''

so here jefferey lewis sums it all up perfectly in just a couple of minutes

''I lay down every night but I can’t get no rest
Cos it starts spinning in my brain and then it’s pounding in my chest
What if I wasted all my youth what if I wasted growing up
What if I wasted my whole life oh man I’d feel like throwing up it’s an

Anxiety attack an anxiety attack
I’ve got a bad case of the horrors and at night it comes back

Cos first I look back at my week and then I look back at my year
And then I’m terrified to speak and then I’m paralysed with fear
And I’m tossing and I’m turning and I’m going round the bend
All I see is all my failings’ downward spirals without end and I

Horror in the in the future and I see horror in the past
And its 4 am and 5 am and 6 am at last

Cos what if I never feel grown up and I end a car accident
And what if I go crazy and what if this time it’s permanent
And what I go broke and have to move back with my parents
And then what if I get cancer and I ain’t got no insurance

All my days are moving faster and it’s making me feel dizzy
How come I get nothing down but always feel so busy

And I used to feel so smart you know I used to feel so strong
But this just can’t be how to live I must be doing something wrong
Because everything I might do feels like something else I can’t
And then another day is gone and I just don’t know where it went I try not

To hang to much try not to watch to much television
But still everything I do just seems to be the wrong decision
And I lay down every night but still I can’t get no rest
Cos it starts spinning in my brain and then it’s pounding in my chest it’s an
Anxiety attack an Anxiety attack
I’ve got a bad case of the horrors and at night it comes back''

lovely stuff.