Well just the drink and drugs parts
Last weekend I decided that I was just gonna cut alcohol and drugs out completely. Not as some ethical stand or counter culture bullshit, mostly for health (getting back to good fitness so I can get involved in sports I seem to have dropped over the last couple of years), social (was relying on it WAY too much at the end of last year to break the ice with uni people) and money reasons (came to the shocking conclusion that I'd spent thousands of pounds on alcohol/drugs last year with nothing much to show for it.. and I'm a poor student). But its seems to have brought up a load of problems.
1. My friends all get completely wrecked, to a ridiculous extent, and talk total bullshit which would pass if I was also wrecked, but becomes really frustrating. But I don't really want to be pissed off at my friends, but socialising has become weird as fuck.
2. I'm now inadvertently sending out really bad, patronising undertones to people on nights out because I'm pretty sure people are reading into it that I'm judging them for drinking which couldn't be further from the truth.
3. Tonight a few of my friends were getting pretty mangled on ket and mdma and I was actually pretty horrified at how bad they were getting/were acting/looked. Now I'm retroactively really embarrassed for all the times I've been around the non drug users in my halls on something and realise I must have looked like a TOTAL CUNT to them. Oh god.
I'm sure there are some people on here who have done similar things, or are teetotal/straight edge/whuteva. How the fuck did you overcome these problems (mostly the first one)? Should I just succumb? Argh