was leaning on the door to the entrance of the section of the block of flats i live in as i walked home. i saw her from afar, and saw another guy who i believe lives on the 2nd floor coming in, and saw how she threw herself at him, begging him to let her into the block, and how he pushed her off to her (probably somewhat exaggerated) knees and came in and slammed the door in her face.

i walked past the block 4 times, up and down the street, to make sure she'd gone away before i came in.

i know this makes me a cunt. i'm not quite sure in which way though. except maybe every way. the lack of willingness to take part in a confrontation, or the overwhelming urge not to go anywhere near the situation at all. what aspect of this is the most cuntish?