basically I've been going through a pretty shit time recently. My dad's really ill, and I've been told he's not got that long left, I myself have been pretty ill with various things, I'm snowed under with uni work, and been missing my girlfriend who's currently in France on her year abroad loads, and it's all proving too much to be honest. I go to counselling once a week, on Mondays, which I find really useful, but I find by about Wednesdays, I'm feeling down again.
I speak to her every day, but recently when I've been speaking to her, she's seemed, well...distant...I'm the world's biggest worrier, I'm the first to admit that, but every time I get off the phone to her, I worry that my depression has been getting her down, and that she's getting annoyed with me being so down, and I basically end up blaming myself. I tried raising the point with her this evening (that she's seemed quite distant of late), but she seemed to get quite offended, and said something like "I hate it when you say things like that", and blamed her being distant on her being tired.
Arggghhhh, I hope this actually makes sense. I was contemplating antidepressants, but don't want to have to resort to them. Positives/negatives of antidepressants anybody? Advice?