i need opinions and thoughts please.
ill try to keep it short and give the basics and then ill add anything i need to after, but please stick with it.
i work at a bakery. just a quick easy job to get money to travel now ive graduated. the goal was, get in, keep my head down, get quick money and im off.
its a small pathetic little thing on the side of a bp garage, with two members of staff each shift plenty for the work. im paired, for every shift with a woman about 50 odd. very sweet, perfectly nice, nothing much to say to each other, we chew the fat and get by, but she's a bit sad i and cant help but feel sorry for her. wouldnt hurt a fly, always nice to everyone etc. not the sharpest tool but completely harmless, as patronising as that sounds.
last week she was sent home because someone grassed her up for smelling of booze. think she got a warning, and it was never mentioned between us, she carried on as normal. everyday, she comes in smelling of booze, but i just see it as nothing to do with me, so i couldnt give a fuck. she cant really do the job, so im working for two, but it dont make no difference, so i just want to get on with it and get out.
but today, there were no managers. so she went for a coffee break, and came back 15 minutes later, absolutely, and completely 100% shitfaced. now i know its easy to joke about...but honestly...and this sounds like a cliche or like im exaggerating, but it was one of the most fucking awful things ive ever experience because she changed so much so quickly, it was nuts, like a light switch. she absolutely stank, had this maniacal grin and darting eyes, she slurred every word and couldnt really make sense, she couldnt write or hold the pen, she took money off a customer and just stared, catatonic, at the pound she was given, not knowing what to do with it. i was subtle and just went along with her, and then said 'oh if you fancy getting off, i dont mind closing down and cashing up, its not busy so you might as well go home' she was really grateful, said she had shopping to do and left, literally just as the manager returned.
i looked up the road and she stepped out in front of one car (a collegues car, who came in bemused at what just happened) and zig zagged the whole way down the road, just completely, unbelievably fucked. i felt guilty at this and thought i should have called her a cab.
i told two people at work, just because it was like a bad dream and i was like 'fuck, i think thingy is pissed' and i sort of needed a 2nd opinion and couldnt keep it to myself because it was so evicerating and awful and depressing and mental. they said i need to tell a manager but i couldnt and felt too guilty...she was literally holding onto my arm before and pouring her heart out about not seeing her friends where she used to live and saying she hoped i didnt leave work etc.
so ive just left it as me having told two people, which i already feel guilty about, as it could start the ball rolling if they say something.
but what the fuck do i do? i really dont want to say anything because she must be so fucked up to be acting like this... but what hapened just cant happen. and i cant just turn a blind eye because we work so closely as a pair, and i have to sort of guide her through work everyday, let alone when she is like this..so i cant just ignore her and keep myself to myself.
we've all had people at work like this, but this is different because we have to work so closely, its just us two for everything, eight hours everyday. i feel like an arsehole for thinking that i dont want to deal with shit like this but...i dunno...its just such a fucked up situation.