There’s this girl who I met at school in year 8 (when I joined) and we started walking to and from school together, I respected her for not following the other kids in my class who took a dislike to me, as I was the “new kid”.
By year 10 I had grown very fond of her, as more than a friend and revealed this to her. She was all giggly like most girls would be at that age and ran off to tell her friends, the mistake I made was not asking her out directly (I don’t know if she would’ve said yes or not, but a couple of years later she told me she might have, if I had asked her straight out).
My best friend ended up going out with her in year 11 and they were together for about a year and a half, taking their relationship into year 13 (6th form). I was devastated but couldn’t tell either of them, hearing him talk about her in the way he did was very difficult and she would come to me and ask questions when about him, when things weren’t going right in their relationship, it was pretty awkward.
They split up for various reasons that don’t need explaining here, (I’m not sure what needs explaining and what doesn’t to be honest). We left 6th form and me and the girl in question decided to stay friends, well that’s what we said anyway. After this I only ever saw her every few months, she was always a very bus person, but lived very close to me, so I couldn’t understand it. My friend revealed that this was the main problem in their relationship; she was difficult in this way.
Whenever I saw her I was reminded of why I had fallen for her in the first place, I’ve never met a girl (even now) who could make me laugh so effortlessly and talking to her was ridiculously easy, she was also very intelligent and lots of fun. We used to have these hour long plus conversations on the phone and talking on the phone isn’t one of my strong points, especially with girls.
She superpoked me on facebook a month or so ago but I didn’t respond, scared that I’d be hurt again and that she wouldn’t be as committed to being my friend as I would hope her to be.
What should I do? If I get in contact with her I could be hurt again, I was trying to forget about her to be honest, but she’s one of the most amazing people I’ve ever met and I always thought we could be really close.
(I had a dream about her last night, this reminded me)
Sorry about the emo-ness of this thread. :’(
P.S. The male friend mentioned in this thread is still my closest friend, at least I can find something positive to say.