I'm currently not eating properly at all, I'm constantly tired and have no energy and I think I may be causing it by starving myself.
I can just about bring myself to eat a decent sized dinner at the moment but breakfast and lunch are inadequate and becoming almost non-existant.
Now I used to be fat when I was 13 and other children used to ridicule me for it. I managed to lose the weight through sheer determination, even though I loved food so much.
I'm not fat now, not at all but every time I put on a little bit of weight I feel the need to starve myself again. I vowed never to be over-weight again and any sign of letting myself go is always dealt with straight away.
This constant fear of being fat is stopping me from eating properly and although it's under control at the moment, I don't want it to spiral out of control. When I was about 17 and very depressed I stopped eating almost completely, water and the occasional piece of fruit is all that I ate for weeks. I can't go through that again.
Are some people destined to always have problems like this?