today i woke up and couldn't stop coughing for 15 minutes, the chest infection that's been coming on the past few days having finally (hopefully) peaked.
aside from making it inconvenient to breathe, it's making it nigh impossible to smoke, and though i would usually say that nicotine withdrawal was the greater of two evils, and it was worth withstanding the hacking pain, i think this time it's just not worth it. i love smoking (i mean, really love it) but i'm broke, and it feels like i've reached some sort of line, especially if this feeling in my chest is the shape of things to come.
so, in a brave move for first thing monday morning, while at work, feeling like shit, i've decided to quit smoking, at least temporarily, and hopefully for longer than the duration of this illness to save some money, be a bit healthier for a while etc. i'm not sure it'll last permanently, but we'll see.
i've smoked since i was 15, which means 10 years, and am pretty much on 20 a day, strong cigarettes. having a cigarette is the first thing i do in the morning. i anticipate that this is going to suck. a lot.
i'm sure this thread has come up a million times from a million different people, so i'm hoping to draw on some past wisdom here. what's the best way to go about this?