After a terrible & I mean literally terrible emtional turmoil I had been suffering during March mainly, I finnaly thought I was getting over numerous instances of my life which caused me to really start feeling down.

Today I saw my Dad who recently came out of hospital after liver faliure and of course when I heard that it was great news and I had seen him loads but today as I watched him struggerling to operate a cash machine I started to realise that although it may seem it the problems are still there, I realised I despise my housemates, am emotionally distancing myself away from my mum because I hate her boyfriend, im currently financialy unstable and finding it unusualy difficult to find a job & cant seem to quite pull myself out of this hole.... I dont know whether its the fact i'm ill that i'm feeling so down aided by feeling socially withdrawn by having to turn down many things with my friends due to issues or finanacial problems... but it just shows you that problems are often much deeper then you originaly thought.