So, anyway, turns out this girl I like has got a boyfriend. What makes this much worse if she hasn't had a boyfriend for long and if I'd actually got round to asking her out even as recently as a few weeks ago she wouldn't have had a boyfriend. And I suspect would have been interested...
Luckly I didn't actually ask her out today (it just came up in conversation) so I've not made any kind of idiot of myself but I am kind of disappointed, particularly 'cos I should have learned this lesson by now from at least one of the several thousand times I've done the exact thing before.
I don't even think I've actually been bottling it or scared of rejection. I just constantly hedge my bets and never commit to even so much as asking a girl out due to fear that I'll close off other avenues. I wish I could just commit to wanting one thing, or in this case one person, in my life and actually focussing on it rather than constantly wanting everything and ending up with nothing.
Anyway, rant over... What valuable life lessons are you never ever going to learn?