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Why am I such a loser/knob/dick/insert-your-own?
So there was a girl out in the only club there is (at home) tonight. I quite like her, I didn't make a move, 'cause I'm lame and then she went and got with a former colleague of mine (and hers), it's so rubbish.
There was also a girl out that I like but was with before and didn't pursue the previous 'engagement'. She's pretty hot, I'd post a Facebook/Bebo link but that would be creepy so I won't. But yeah she's like really hot, probably too hot for me. Infact waaay too hot for me, am I being to insecure?
Then there is a girl who is pretty much best freinds with the first girl I mentioned, she's a really nice girl and we get on great but I don't know how girl number 1 would take it. Should I care? She did just get with a former colleague and told me about it and didn't seem like she felt about me the way I feel about her. Y'know I like and all but It's not too deep. None of this love you but will never admit it business, I guess I just think she I hot, god, I'm such a sexpest. I think she sees me differently than I see her :( But I'm too much of a fool to say anything.
Also, to make things worse, there was a female friend out tonight who was a total (excuse my French) cock tease and who total comes onto me when she's drunk. But I guess you need to understand the locality of it all. Like I've know this girl for years, but she is like grabbing my piece when she's drunk. All the time. Like trying to kiss me but it's maybe too much of an inappropriate place if you know what I mean. Y'know, when someone's trying to get it on at like 11 and you're like "wow, later maybe". Hmmmm, maybe I'm too much of a pap, do I read into things too much?
SO yeah, there is like four girls on the horizon. I left with none of them. Ones a very close friend, ones a friend, ones a friend of a friend and ones a girl I got with a fee months a go.
I am such a knobber.
I went home alone tonight and I'm like, how the hell?
I really need to be more domineering with girls but I can't be, I'm rubbish in those sort of situations. I'm such a pap.
What has bothered you tonight?
I have bothered my self.