So, jenny's helped me get over a big barrier and finally realise... I'm racist.
I havn't told my parents yet but I think they'll be ok with it. I've had racist thoughts for a while now, but I just brushed them off and thought "that's not me", but i've finally accepted myself and it feels good. I just wish this world would grow up and stop persecuting racists for the way they are.
Anyway: thanks, jenny.