Cause he got unhappy, and I don't know why, because I do everything right for him, I really do. But anyway, he got unhappy - really unhappy - and then it happens, I'd never even considered such a thing before, but there it is, there in front of me, he wants to be transfer listed. And god, I mean, that really hurt, but I figured we'd sort it out, you know? And, well, to be fair I had been a bit more harsh with my comments, and oh god, it really was all my fault, I messed it up. But anyway, I try everything, we'd been so good for ages, it's got to be fixable, surely? But he starts saying things to the press, bad stuff, that I'm being unreasonable and of course he's right, I screwed up, but it's too late to take the comments back, and he asks to be transfer listed, and I just, I really don't know what to do. It just feels so numb.
And of course, I do everything I possibly can. I increase his wages by over 100%, and those of the players he likes, and his little brother, Digao. I make only positive statements, and try to do everything my players request. ...And it doesn't work, and I know it's all over, it's just so horrible. And of course I can't continue anymore, this squad I've played and won with season after season, it's now so empty and soulless.
But I figure all isn't lost - it'll still be okay. Just start again. Kaka and I, we're brilliant together; we just had a fight, people close to each other do fight, it's inevitable, it's natural. But I'm a few games in now, and of course he's doing good - two hatricks can you believe - he's playing flawlessly. But it's all gone. That BUZZ, our CONNECTION... and there's just nothing.