Sorry I'm posting lots of threads! This will be the last one.
Have you ever been determined to do something, only to have a sort of epiphany and realise you don't want to do it? What do you do, follow your original conviction or your gut reaction? When I was in London this weekend I felt almost disgusted with myself that I was so determined to move there. I feel like recently in many parts of my life I haven't been very true to myself. I guess I have been in pursuit of something - hedonism, I'm not sure. And now I'm veru confused, doubtful and almost disgusted at my behaviour, even if it has been almost impercetible to others - I'm not sure if it has - but anyway it's making me feel very uncomfortable about my own personality and motivations.