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My time on DiS, a message to the board (honesty-centric)
Good morning everyone. :)
I think it’s time I did some explaining, so here is an honest assessment of my time on DiS.
When I started finding out about new music was my aim, I didn’t even notice the boards at first, but I thought it would benefit me to sign up once they came to my attention. I was unemployed and depressed, bitter with the world and blaming people for my state of mind. My posts during these times reflected this; to be honest I was a right up-tight little jerk.
The next chapter of my DiS existence came when I found work, I started posting less at first, concentrating on my new job and then boredom and opportunity to internet more often overcame me. Some things still troubled me, my bus-stop thread reflected this, I was obsessed with finding a girlfriend, and maybe I thought it was the next logical step towards complete contentment. I realise this is not necessarily the case now. My threads were innocent enough, although I was still prone to occasionally being consumed by irrational rage and hatred for the human race.
I never really felt truly accepted and my outbursts had built me a reputation I wasn’t happy with, I couldn’t understand all the elitism, it was time to rebel.
I’ve now built a fake account using my real one, or an internet persona. It’s based on part of my true personality but is exaggerated and designed in such a way that I can just have some fun with you guys. I honestly didn’t think anyone cared that some guy was being a self-obsessed fucktard on a website, but maybe I was wrong.
That’s my truthful explanation, I don’t expect you all to believe me but I tried at least. I should have more faith in my real life personality and stop trying to be something I’m not, although it was fun while it lasted.
I expect some of you to make sarcastic little comments in response to this post, I expect others to just ignore it completely but I had to make this point, sorry.
And yes I understand that this post couldn’t be any more self-referential if I’d have tried but by its very nature I don’t think it was possible to do it any other way.
Thanks. xxx