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‘I’m worried I’m not as clever or special as I thought I was’
http://www.theguardian.com/world/2016/mar/07/its-not-just-you-millennials-share-their-secret-fears
This comment is getting a lot of stick, and I can see why. Still, it strikes me as being quite poignant:
‘I’m worried I’m not as clever or special as I thought I was’
Compared with many people, 30-year-old Lizzie from London has a rosy life: she is in a relationship and has a full-time job for which she has won an award. But she is secretly disillusioned and feels she can’t talk openly about her fears because, relatively, she’s well-off.
“I worry that I’m never going to live up to my own expectations. I live in terror that I will wake up on my 50th birthday in a perfectly ordinary house, with a perfectly ordinary family and unremarkable job – living an unremarkable, ordinary, average life.
“When we were growing up we were told we could be anything that we wanted to be. I am coming to the realisation that I am just not as talented, clever or special as I assumed I was. I’m not an Instagram celebrity; I don’t go to the most glamorous parties; and I don’t have beautiful kids.
“My yearbook from a small Suffolk school reveals one class alone with three kids who wanted to be prime minister. It’s worse for my friends who assumed by now that they’d be famous actresses and find themselves as teachers or salesmen. They have, from the outside, wonderful lives – but quietly they are wondering where it all went wrong. The success of my peers doesn’t feel like affirmation; it feels like a knife made of jealousy in my ribs.”