Cos fuck it.

. Think I might have cancer
. My mum is really sick off and on all the time, no doctors can diagnose it...It's making me aware that she won't be around forever and how much I rely on her to keep me sane.
. I still love my ex who I haven't seen for 6 years; someone mentioned meeting up with her and I've felt sick in my stomach for three weeks non-stop...on the back of literally two sentences of conversation with a friend. I'm totally aware of how much of a freak this makes me and want to die.
. I'm getting fat

Those are the main things.