I suppose something you believe in so passionately it practially envelopes your life into your 20s and 30s and hopefully beyond will make you have opinions that don't sit easy with everyone. But really it never denotes your lack of belief in music, just the continuing battle of joy and frustration and downright kick-a-dog- into-the-sea-whilst-laughing/weeping-at-blueness-of-the-still-sky thrill that is music in general.
So not really an apology then. Fugazi? 13th rate Killing Joke at a push and named after a Marrilion album.