this is a very self centered thread, and repeats things i've mentioned already today, but i'd like a hand working something out, if that's ok with you all.

ok: i dont like house music much.
i lucked into a job at a house music company because my brother works there.
theyre putting on a big, not very credible night at The End tonight, and i'm on the list for it.

so i should go, to sort of bond with the people i work with, and especially my brother, to experience something new and not disappoint them by asking for guestlist and not turning up.

BUT i'm tired and depressed and can't find any actual friends to go with me, so going would basically just be turning up, feeling awkward over how terrible i look, getting pissed off with myself for being a loser, and would just further distance myself from the office people.

so yeah: thoughts?