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My friend had what I thought was a really good idea for a low/no-budget film so we both agreed to write a rough first draft independantly and then pool our ideas. Just 27 pages into my version of the script I'm already hating everything about it. Problem is that I'm almost hysterically fearful of letting anyone see my stuff so I'm not sure if I'm hating it for the right reasons. I hate the actual act of writing - all the dialogue, characters and situations are so pathetically contrived. I'm actully dreading even thinking about it. Because of this I've completely stalled and can't really be bothered carrying on. I don't like any of the ideas as to how to proceed I've come up with and frankly I think I'm wasting my time.
But my mate is expecting to meet me next Thursday to compare notes. I feel like I'm conning him or something.
Don't ask what the idea is, because it's derivitive, cheap and total bullshit (in hindsight).
I've become a total Barton Fink-type character.
Time to give up and stop trying, would you say?