Pretty fucking irritating, right? We've been apart for 11 months, and we almost got back together in March, which ended up with me crying in the middle of the dancefloor at The Arc in Brighton, whilst 'Blind' by Hercules & Love Affair played in the background (pretty ironic given the situation). Up until today I thought I was totally over him, then I found out he has a boyfriend, and now I feel really jealous and a bit upset. I'm upset because he told me that he wasn't ready for a relationship (this was in March), and yeah, it's just fucking annoying.
DiSers, please share your story of hopeless love!
i fucking LOVE blind, even if it sounds like Arthur Russell
Me too!
It was a pretty good song to cry to. Not a good song to hit your best friend to, though.
What do you mean, "even if it sounds like Arthur Russell"?
Arthur Russell is great, is he not...?
.
He is great.
i meant in a
even if it is an unoriginal, derivative rip off
i love arthur russell!
Also, Athene
sounds exactly like music from the second level of Streets of Rage II on the megadrive.
exactly this happened to me.
we were together for about a year, and then apart for 11 months and i saw him on nye and cried to my friends. it was heartbreaking.
but then we got back together and i messed it all up.
this summed it up for me:
I don't want to get over you. I guess I could take
a sleeping pill and sleep at will and not have to
go through what I go through. I guess I should take
Prozac, right, and just smile all night at somebody new,
Somebody not too bright but sweet and kind who would
try to get you off my mind. I could leave this agony behind
which is just what I'd do if I wanted to, but I don't
want to get over you cause I don't want to get over love.
I could listen to my therapist, pretend you don't exist
and not have to dream of what I dream of; I could listen
to all my friends and go out again and pretend it's enough,
or I could make a career of being blue--I could dress
in black and read Camus, smoke clove cigarettes and drink
vermouth like I was 17 that would be a scream but I
don't want to get over you.
but i know how you feel and it fucking sucks
(})
That's how I feel, sort of
I don't want to take a sleeping pill really, nor do I need to take prozac, but I guess I don't want to get over him. It's just shit, he hasn't kept to his part of the promise, which was stay friends. He rarely calls me, if we talk on msn he never replies. I bumped into him last month and he was acting like everything is normal. Fucking annoying.
the problem with us WAS
for me, that he had a pretty rough time this time last year, and i was there for him. i had a lot of trouble a couple of months later (i walked out of home and then moved away) and he didn't even bother to arrange to say goodbye, despite knowing how i felt about him/what a mess i was.
it's sorted now, he tells me he felt the same as me but was too scared to say anything/thought the situation was hopeless because of me leaving. that was by far the hardest part, just feeling like he didn't care at all, despite me trying to get in touch.
some people need time before they can be friends though - and sometimes they think they can cope and suddendenly realise that they can't when you think the shit is over, it's always a complicated situation.
"I don't want a relationship"
usually means either "I'm trying to let you down gently" or "I don't want a relationship with you but I would like to use you for sex until I find someone better"*
*my story of hopeless love. :(
That happened too
Which is why I ended up in tears. Still, it's completely fucked me off.
gah
i've used that line a few times.
hang tight
Finding out that your ex has a new boyfriend/girlfriend ALWAYS brings feelings back up. I was fine for months before finding out my ex had a new boyfriend. Two weeks of agonising hell and regret and now I feel fine.
It's not that you're not over them, but stuff like this is bound to be a kick in the teeth.
It's a'ight.
(})
too many stories that i'm not in the mood for sharing, but i've probably done worse
This happened tonight!
Massive co-incidence!
Yeah, me and my ex-girlfriend mutually broke up with each other 4 months ago, and I just talked to her properly for the first time since then (I've said the odd word to her before, but not a proper conversation) and I was just thinking "SHIIIT! She's so amazing! Why the fuck did I break up with her again?" the entire time. This actually did just happen about an hour ago :(
But unfortunately she has a new boyfriend now, who she seems absolutely infatuated with, and worst of all is that he's an annoying cunt who I hate (I hated him even before he was going out with her, by the way)
:(
I don't know if I'm over any of my exes
100%. And that upsets me.
Especially when I've ended two of the last three relationships.
I haven't got time theeterscrimp
I simply haven't got tim, there have been so many heartbreaks in my lifetime so far.
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Are you a heartbreaker then Mr Codswallop?
;)
I have been.
But more often than not, I have had mine split into two halves.
Sometimes I really wish I wasn't a gemini.
itll all be ok in the end
and youll feel better for it. i do at the moment but cant be arsed to go into anything, but let it be known that other people- fucking weirdos.
Seeing her everyday,
actually fills me with more resentment than anything else
I've just remembered
On a slightly more positive note, I saw my ex a few weeks ago and he looked really terrible, obviously hadn't shaved, showered or had a hair cut recently enough. He never looked that shit when he was going out with me so it was great to see that he's not making the slightest bit of effort to look nice for his current girlfriend. That made me feel A LOT better.
:D
Brilliant. It's those little things that make you feel smug and happy!
Yeah
It was just nice to be able to think, after so long, that actually on that occasion it was him who wasn't good enough for me. Also, as his girlfriend decided to start going out with him even though she knew he was still involved with me/messing me around, it's satisfying to see what she's ended up with. She deserves a boyfriend who looks like a tramp.
God, I sound like such a bitch
She does deserve it, honest.
i just found a photo from 2 years of me kissing someone i used to see
she had a baby on Friday (definitely not mine)
i miss her so much :(
I'm over my ex
but not over the £300 she owes me